The Weights of Change
I feel myself being suffocated by change. Constant big decisions and feelings are swirling around within my being and I'm never giving myself a break.
I have to remind myself over and over and over again it's okay to say no, it's okay to take a step back, it's okay to walk away from things.
The art of presence is a remarkable thing but it is also magnifying the change taking place within our world, within myself and within my friendships.
Sometimes it becomes so much to bear I want it all to stop.
I have been taking on the weight of everyone around me. Including my own. And I have to find ways to give myself space to let them go. I can feel myself changing. This is a time that is uncomfortable, uncertain and unknown for all of us. It becomes easy to slip into a habit of taking on the weight of ourselves, the world and others all at once.
I have to let that go. I have to take a step. I have to focus on me.
Giving myself time to write, read and meditate is the biggest must. If I don't have that I don't have the real and true me.
Change is everywhere and in everything. Change is always happening. We are just more aware of it sometimes over others.
My key is to take care of me. To reach out and lean on support when I need it. To walk away when necessary. And to give myself space to feel, grieve and just be.